It Truly Is The End
Neo asked me to post this. It’s already been posted on AD.
About the blog, the poetry book, and the essay book
by VANDERLEUN on APRIL 6, 2025
Tomorrow or the next day this blog will go dark. It’s what Gerard wanted, although it’s not an easy thing to do. This blog meant so much to him and to so many people for so long.
The book of Gerard’s poetry that I’ve edited should be published in a month or two. When it’s available, I’ll send an announcement to the new blog, and some of you might also get emails about it if you’re on an emailing list I’ve generated.
I’ve been thinking that there may be enough material for me to publish a second book of Gerard’s essays.
There’s about a 50% chance of that and if I do it I’ll keep you posted.

Thank you for all you have done.
God bless you.
Sad, now. But also proud of you readers and of NEO for the memories made.
My last comment there:
And in the end…..
https://youtu.be/12R4FzIhdoQ?t=92
@ 6:30am 07 Apr 2025, @ americandigest.org
This website is currently closed. Many thanks to all Gerard’s readers.
I dunno how I’ll think about it in a month, or a year, but for the time being, I’m having a hard time closing the tab that took me to American Digest.
I have 2 tabs, AD and AD2, and I’ll leave it like that for awhile I guess. jeez, what a drag
Off topic, but back to our discussion last week, my neighbor just posted this to his Facebook page.
Paul Gurvitz, rock legend and founding member of UK rock powerhouses; Baker Gurvitz Army with Ginger Baker , Three Man Army, and Gun, has assembled his newest venture aptly titled; the New Army. Originally from England, Paul moved to LA to continue his successful, multi-platinum songwriting career. After recently moving to Arizona, Paul has put together another band to perform on stage once again; hence, the birth of “The New Army”.
Thank you for everything you’ve done for Gerard & his fans. He was fortunate to have you in his life.
Hope to see you all around.
Thank you Neo for keeping AD running for the last 2 years. It’s A sad day I think we all hoped would never really come.
I know I added my sentiments here the other day
but never saw it appear. Just wanted to add my appreciation
to Neo plus my hopes that someday she would be advertising
a book of her own. I’m also grateful that she has a blog and of
course for DT who is so ably carrying the flag.
Hey jd. Your previous comment didn’t show up on the admin site either. Not sure what happened as you’re on the white list. And thank you.
Like Gerard, his site has now gone as well. As John Donne once indicated, “we are diminished.”
Here is something that Gerard posted a few years ago that seems appropriate with the closing of his site.
“The Witness,” a very short story by Jorge Luis Borges
by VANDERLEUN on FEBRUARY 10, 2019
In a stable that stands almost in the shadow of the new stone church, a man with gray eyes and gray beard, lying amid the odor of the animals, humbly tries to will himself into death, much as a man might will himself to sleep. The day, obedient to vast and secret laws, slowly shifts about and mingles the shadows in the lowly place; outside lie plowed fields, a ditch clogged with dead leaves, and the faint track of a wolf in the black clay where the line of woods begins. The man sleeps and dreams, forgotten.
The bells for orisons awaken him. Bells are now one of evening’s customs in the kingdoms of England, but as a boy the man has seen the face of Woden, the sacred horror and the exultation, the clumsy wooden idol laden with Roman coins and ponderous vestments, the sacrifice of horses, dogs, and prisoners. Before dawn, he will be dead, and with him, the last eyewitness images of pagan rites will perish, never to be seen again. The world will be a little poorer when this Saxon man is dead.
Things, events, that occupy space yet come to an end when someone dies may make us stop in wonder—and yet one thing, or an infinite number of things, dies with every man’s or woman’s death, unless the universe itself has a memory, as theosophists have suggested. In the course of time there was one day that closed the last eyes that had looked on Christ; the Battle of Junin and the love of Helen died with the death of one man. What will die with me the day I die? What pathetic or frail image will be lost to the world? The voice of Macedonia Fernandez, the image of a bay horse in a vacant lot on the corner of Sarrano and Charcas, a bar of sulfur in the drawer of a mahogany desk?
English translation by Andrew Hurley Via â Biblioklept”
I’d put this up as a post but Neo may be coming out with a 2nd edition of Gerard’s essays and I don’t want to risk posting something she’ll be putting in the book.
Nuke it if you think it necessary. Please. Your house, your rulz, I wouldn’t want to be offensive to the proprietor. I figured it wouldn’t hurt inasmuch as it was something Gerard found and shared, and not his personal work product. But if you would rather it not be here, wouldn’t hurt my feelings.
I rather think I’d like it read at my funeral, though…….
And I rather hope Neo does in fact come out with a second edition. The man left a tremendous amount of work and would be nice for it to survive him a little longer.
Thanks for putting this up. I don’t see it as a problem. >You< putting it up in comments is OK. It would not be OK for >me< to turn it into a post. I liked it, I would have put it up as a post, but I'm playing by Neo's rules here. I put my 2 cents in about a second volume. She indicated she's 50/50 on the idea. Leave a comment at vanderleunbooks.com; let her know you're interested. She said the poetry book will be out in a month or so. Having published a few books myself, it's not a trivial task. It could be this particular essay isn't scheduled for the new book anyway, but I've only heard of one selection - one that I was going to re-post ... one she specifically asked me not to post. If she sees this comment and OKs it, I will post this.
You have published books, DT? Please tell more.
Wendell Berry write a poem called
“The Meadow”:
In the town’s graveyard the oldest plot now frees itself
of sorrow, the myrtle of the graves grown wild. The last
who knew the faces who had these names are dead,
and now the names fade, dumb on the stones, wild
as shadows in the grass, clear to the rabbit and the wren.
Ungrieved, the town’s ancestry fits the earth. They become
a meadow, their alien marble grown native as maple.
I think he meant that we cease to exist only when there is no one with even the remotest memory of us.
A question, a fear, we all have when we have lost someone dear is how not to forget them, the details of their face, the sound of their voice, the shape of their hands, their gestures and expressions. We want them to continue to exit even if in just a memory. We do our utmost to keep those memories alive so that the ones we love stay with us.